What will happen, if I.....?

Accidents do happen. Even when you think that you did nothing wrong. You might be driving at your best behaviour, not bending any rules that is possible to bend. But somehow, at the end of the day, you might be end up in the hospital.

You're on your death bed. You're comatose - that's what the doctor said. You need life support - and you breathe involuntary through the ventilator. People say, even though you look helpless, lifeless, but somehow you can feel. You can still hear. You can still feel a person's touch.You can still hope that you will get through this.

I wonder, if I am to go through that journey, who will be there next to my bed? Who will be the first person that appears at the hospital, to come to my aid? Who will the nurses call to report my fatal circumstances? Will it be a friend? Will it be someone who truly cared about me, that I never knew about? Will it be my mother, the only person I know would care, who came all the way across the sea? But I might be dead by then. But who will be there sitting next to my bed, holding and caress my hand, whispers to my ears, asking me to wake up...? who will that person be?

What if this to happen today, tomorrow, or any day in the future..? Will I never have that one person who cares dearly for me?

So what will happen, if I.....?

Living in a new place, new friends, new WORLD.

Entering this small town, with such small circle of friends can be a little bit destructive. Being a new member of this small family, plenty of mind manipulation has been forced upon me, to actually 'choose your friends wisely'. Some were said hypocrites, and those who made the accusation themselves are hypocrites, which has forced me to become a hypocrite too. Probably people do not have any better things to do, besides talking behind someone's back, without confronting them. This, i'm referring to both sides of the football field.  I maybe new to this environment, but i am definitely not new in this such poisonous atmosphere. Sometimes, certain things are better said to the person that you have a feud/misunderstanding, confront them, rather than talk behind our backs, and telling the world, you are the only victim in this wonderful picture. If I have a problem with someone, I tell that particular someone the truth, and "let's settle this with more civilised way", rather than ranting like a child on a blog which you can easily manipulate the truth!!! It's not that big of deal, people!!! We were born with mouth and ears to TALK and LISTEN looongggg before this technology has been created!!! You got a problem with me, say it to my face. Don't go behind my back telling people you've been victimized. Enough that you did with the others (which thanks to you, now I believe them), and now you wanna mess around me too??

 I'll be the bigger person.

And you'll be looking like fool.


Am just saying!

Cheers!