You said that I've closed up too soon.
You said that you care for me, and you dont want me to regret the mistakes that I am about to make.But dear, you will never know, that it was you that I have always been waiting for.
It was an overwhelming ride home tonight. I cried the moment we parted, and headed our separate ways. At first I did not know why I was so sad while I listen to the radio, driving home. But I know this feeling, it is not foreign to me, but I havent felt this feeling for quite a while now. It is a feeling of a broken heart, and knowing that I will never see you again.
It was not easy listening to you, saying that I am so much like her. That she was once as guarded as I am now. You said you were so persistent with her, to make her understand who you really are. While I have known you so well, as much as you know me. When you answered my question, and said that you are sure that she is the one, how I wish that person is me. You said I pushed people away, and did not give anyone a chance to get to know me. But all this while, I did open my heart to this one person. But he never did see me the way I wanted him to. And that person was you.
I understand, there's nothing much I can do. I believe that you have made the right choice by choosing her. Therefore I say this now, and say it to the rest of the world... I will forever, and ever, hold my peace, and hope that both of you will live happily ever after.
A bit on the emo side, yeah. But we've all been through this phase, or something similar. Thankfully, I'm over it. But the funny thing in my case was, I was so damn convinced it was 'true' love... until I realized it wasn't! And, MAN that was liberating!!
ReplyDeleteI hope one day you'll look back and laugh at this, just as I looked back on my own story and laughed it off for what it really was. Not right now, though, it takes some time to reach the next phase. As your friend through all these years, you know I'm by your side here :)
Awww... *pats shoulders* You will always have shoulders to cry on :) Life goes on, and you will look at this and smile one day :) (mcm kata Sitie) but yeah heartbreaks hurts, especially when you really open up. I hope you find comfort in knowing that there's always a silver lining in everything :). Did I use that phrase right? :D I am here for you ^__^ electronically that is...
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